[Part of trying to do better means trying to be more open with people, though the thought of that is still terrifying to Fern. That's why he's trying to do this slowly, with people he knows won't freak out at him. He trusts Buzz a ton, and Buzz kind of already knows what's going on with his head thanks to what went down last October, so it makes sense to reach out to him now that he's no longer repressing everything.]
hi man i uh wanted to talk to you about some stuff
[Because he now remembers the last time Buzz encountered the Grass Demon, and he doesn't want anything weird to end up happening. Also? He's terrified and text is a heck of a lot easier to handle than a face-to-face conversation.]
[oh god. oh god he's going to turn into a monster again and buzz is gonna have to tear his own heart out again ohhhh god he hates this stupid fucking town]
How could I forget. Is something similar happening?
i just wanted to tell you that it kind of turns out i had put a lot of that in my mental vault i was repressing it, you know? and i'm not anymore soooo i remember all of it
not going to lie, it doesn't feel great i think it's probably better for me, though the parts that made me ME didn't exactly go away when i became Fern, you know? and i need to deal with it
You don't need to change your opinion until you're ready to. And I will always think that, no matter what happens. You're a very brave and kind person, Fern. Nothing will change that.
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